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date: Wednesday, July 16, 2008
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time: 10:45 PM
On certain nights, when you suddenly feel this surge from your memories catching up with you and you actually think back on what you have done and who made an impact on your life and stuffs feelings that were once gone actually crept back somehow.Certain people may have felt the same , while others will just never understand this kind of feelings all their life. Well there was this one thing ............. regret actually , which I know very clearly now will never be able to be fulfilled . I don't really feel like writing alot here but yeah I still am able to visualize that feeling now and I wouldn't want to get that feeling again. Maybe it was just an over due crush but to have one that lasted for 6 years I don't really think that I would put any tag on to it. Some people may argue that ' hey you liked someone else during your secondary 2 years so how can you consider it to be 6?' . Reason , simple . I always try to hide how I feel and like another ,but after the initial part fades , I still find myself back to square one and that she was always the one. But as the years go by , I am clear where I stand and I know that my chance will never ever come . The hardest 3 month of my life , started when she ignored me because my confession made me look like a crazed stalker . But After that we still remained friends till now , maybe it was just me but I feel that my perspective on love changed after I met her. I am still finding my way out , but thank whoever that put her into the P5 class then, because if he or she hadn't done so I would not have been fortunate enough to feel the heart break she gave me. Why was it a regret then , because I will never know that if I had taken the chance earlier would things have been different. But thank you for appearing, thank you. |